To Move or Not to Move?

That's the real question right now.

I've been presented with the opportunity to start a new life in a new place. How do you go about deciding to make a move? I've been in Utah since I was 8, that's a ginormous 18 years. This place is basically all I know. My best friend Chad is in Maryland, and currently the only other single guy I know that I could actually do stuff with. He's bought a house there, and has offered me a room.

I can't say that the offer doesn't appeal to me. In fact it appeals to me now more than it ever would have. I had a pretty bad lonely night last night that damn near drove me to just drink myself stupid so I wouldn't have to think about it. Any of you that knows me, knows that's just not me. I hate that I feel that way, it's a rather empty feeling. This feeling stems from this past weekend, where I was more or less told I'm not welcome at my friends apartment. The last group of friends that I have that are single. Now I've got plenty of friends that are married, basically all of them, but they are always busy either with their wives or other things that married people do.

Now I know that I could just up and start making new friends, but honestly at this point in the game what purpose does that serve? Most people in this state at my age are married. Those that aren't seem to be the type of people that I don't get along with. Meaning that they are lushes or druggies. Why is that? God only knows, I sure know I don't. People around here either seem to be very good, or very bad. It's a rare thing indeed to find someone that is middle of the road like me. I'm not what people 'round here would refer to as a "good" person, but by no means could I be considered bad. Where does that leave me? Screwed, that's where.

So I have to ask myself, do I move? Do I start over in a different place, and hope things will be different in a good way? Or do I stick it out, and make the best out of the hand that I've been delt?

My plea to any that read this? Please do me a favor and post your opinion. I'm really at a loss to what I should do. Maybe I'm just crazy, maybe I'm looking at it all wrong. I suppose there are a lot of maybes. UGH!

I don't do early

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Yaaaahhhhhn!

"What time is it?"

"Crap, stupid phone."

Slowly gropes around for the phone.

"oh a little early for a text."

7:30 is definitly a little early for me at the moment, as I can't seem to sleep very well. Something to do with kicking myself in the night in my bad foot. Back to the business at hand

"Ya I fell asleep. Sorry, but good morining! Hope your foot starts feeling better" says Abby

"That's right, she's always falling asleep during our conversations. Almost forgot she did it again last night."

Well from there I get an invitation to get some Jamba Juice. I haven't been there in years, but I'm not about to tell a girl no. Even if I am still half asleep, well maybe it's because I'm half asleep. We may never know. Of course I drag my lazy butt out of bed and head out. Nothing like waking up early to spend time with a girl, especially if it's her treat.

Now I'm sitting here and it feels like I've been awake forever, and I've got crap to do 'till work. Not that I'm gonna do much when I get there being that I'm not all to mobile at the moment. Trust me when I say I don't think I could handle another day of just sitting here on my butt. I honestly wanted to kill myself yesterday I was sooooo frickin bored. My advice to you? Don't get hurt, that way you don't have to sit around for hours with nothing to do but ice and elevate.